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NOT USING THIS BLOG ANYMORE

2008-08-14T09:51:00.000-07:00

http://rock1308steady.blogspot.com/

I am going to delete this blog soon, above is my new blog address. There is always a reason why I want to do this...

Link me up people.... xoxo

SMSA-ians Gathering....

2008-07-25T09:31:00.000-07:00

Thanks for those who come and brought food. You all made my day & I am really sure that after this gathering we might not see each other for a long time again. Back to school, work, uni & etc etc.

For so long I have not feel this happy & laugh this hard... I feel belong again! Next year, we should do it somewhere else and during weekend lah ah~~ So we can do it earlier, you know curfew bah mun buat di rumah2 ani... Weng~ To my parents we are all still kids, normal lah tu Parents kan...

Thanks to those who come and brought the food and yg bawa parut kosong:

Guys: The big guys: Jason, Nabil, Agym & Gmax (jgn ijap aku drive bahhh). Razdy (ko jahat!), Omar (ko pun jahat sama aku!!!), Syaza, Jambri, Nazmi, Aiman, Nirul, Bob, Hambri, G-min, Huffy

Girls: Pij, Aimi, Waniks (You are still one hot momma!), Wan "Coke" - (ampit kah ko tadi?), Stels, Didah, Amoy, Zaty Horsey, Efna (bila ice-cream ah?)

Did I forget anyone?? If I do, I'll add your names up sooner, don't worry.

Special thanks to: Nurul & Atan, Anti Siah, my mom too

Pictures pending... :) Well I think I'll update on this sooner...

Thanks for the nights you all SMSA-ians -- it meant a lot to me and everybody else! :D many thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If only

2008-07-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

... you knew how it feels to keep it low ...
... you knew I never meant to ...
... you knew none is anyone's fault ...
... you knew you meant a lot to me ...
... you knew I fell for you ...
... you knew I miss him being close to me ...
... you all knew how the heck these feelings are killing me deep inside ...

--different feelings for each of my 1001 worries --

Count me in, you all rocks!

2008-07-23T20:36:00.000-07:00

I am really packed for the whole day. First – Peach I am sorry I did not get to you as soon as I was home. I picked up my sister from school earlier than expected, since her Geo teacher cancelled the class. X( We went to KB town for a “mission” and errr we bought drinks from Jollybean! As usual Coffee & Cookies with pearl... And Nabil though you pay for the apple juice, you still owe me this. 2 kan u janji? Wengs~ wengs~ wengs~ (my new sound effect). Then off to Pustaka Remaja to photocopy all these documents for my CRB (Criminal Record Bureau) form. PS: I am not a criminal bah Newcastle Careers Service!!!!

Then from KB I rushed back home around 3.30PM – once home, I have been trying to call my nephew and niece in UK on Skype (there were technical problems) – but unsuccessful. Why you can only see me but I cannot see you eh!!?? So so biasalah janji Malayu kan – I came late for the Wazirian’s Girls Gathering, was there about 4.05PM maybe. I am glad some of us turn up & ada yg inda turn up atu jgn tah worry we will meet again... to those who “andang” cannot turn up coz you are somewhere then we did not forget you ok? Seriously Mizz where the heck are you!?
Thank you Zita “hantu wa mata mu aaaa”, Saf (unpredictable jua u ani sometimes), Lalitha (you horny bitch!), Linna (seriously contact my sister if you straighten hair again), Siaw Yen (wow, you are still the “talker”), Filah or as I call “Phil” (you made it! Thanks. You I love, ehe), Eqah (you damn hot chix, nda marah si Zul arah aku nie? Wengs~) – you girls made my day! Picturessss please!!!! – we were at the beach till kinda night :PP

7.05PM – rushing getting ready to go for another “date”. I drove to pick up Enong (love you babe)! To go for perayaan di KB ah! Lucky we got car park at NBT... yay! Talked to her, had dinner with her (Ahads Burger ROCKS!!!!). I met Ummi there, hi Ummi!!!! Bila inda busy hang out lagi ok? Then we went to see some of the performance. Met some old friends and juniors. AND among all of people, I met Helmi and Aimi moi Bitchhhhhh....... Seriously I am glad to see you both!! And Enong thanks for being with me whole night listening to my rants... :)
11.00PM drove back home... daddy msg dah~

Anyways I am happy to see some of you at random place.
Pictures will be uploaded when I got them in my lappie.
Woot~ Woot~

not cool

2008-07-23T10:35:00.000-07:00

I am sorry to those who did not know about Wazirians Girls gathering today, I have sent e-mail, msgs and hoping some of you spread the news to the others. & we all were hoping to see all of you turn up! I did my best. And getting all these "upsetting" msgs from MSN, and mobile phones are not cool at all.

I do not have to deal with friends who I trust and value the most throwing such allegations to my FACE. Some of the things does not have to be personal invitations and sometimes it is not my own responsibility to inform every single thing to you. I respect you as a friend so please understand and do the same.... I am sorry but I am really disappointed with these matters.

If we are really friends... which you value the most? not getting invited personally by me (when its not my plan) or throwing these allegations to my face? You decide. I am done apologizing and explaining....

Thank you for understanding me that much and judging me this way.. I am really done admitting things I did not do on purpose...

Signing out...

untitled

2008-07-22T19:25:00.000-07:00

still have the cold. I saw Alif's and Emie's video on their blog -- I am impressed, very deep indeed :P and I am glad things work out so well for them :D also to Lydia, hehe. u still owe me a "cover story"... aahhh being random again. :)

I really can't wait to go to Korea... *pause*

if... I go this September... at least I see him before he go for army. and for another 2 years... we might not be able to contact each other... no one knows what'll happen after 2 years anyways. so I rather go this September and enjoy every seconds with him... you will be missed Jagiya. :)

i am looking forward for the gathrings and all. tonight perhaps i am going to perayaan with one of my close friend -- Enong. since i promise her lama dah kan... so i better... :) see u later tonight darling...

yesterday went to C.A Mohd, Seria with Saf & Zati -- to be honest your car is hot Saf!! it is great to see you again darls. if anyone stalks you again -- tell me! too bad tani nada gambar sama2. but later baik tah vain!

guess im going to sleep again now... this cold is really bugging me :(

Unwell

2008-07-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

If only you know I miss you so
If only you know how much you meant to me
& if you knew -- just let me be the one for you

Today, Pij was here. Glad she was there for me! I had enough people making up stories. So whatever (you know who you are Mr....). I feel so not good today. Woke up late till Pij came into "my room"... God I looked terrible.
I'll upload some photos on my weekends soon perhaps.

Love, Bebs

PS: To all the Wazirians please confirm with me if there is actually reunion this Wednesday!!! I myself cannot contact you all personally, so please spread the words!! Thank you very much.

To my Dearest Friend

2008-07-20T09:36:00.000-07:00

There are many things we do not understand in this life... I usually don't.

To fall in love is so easy~ but to keep on loving someone is never been easy. Keep your spirit high & do not change a thing about you coz changes do not make anything any perfect... Time will tell what our "other" side of life should be.

To someone (you know who you are) -- I do not need to be blamed for not telling you about all this plans. You are not even left out by me. It was a plan & about to tell everybody. You are not the last person to know. We all would love to have you there with us if there is any possibilities! I am really sorry from the bottom of my heart... All I hope is you not to think I left you out. All of my friends are my priorities. Somehow, you thought I ditched you... That hurt me the most! Whatever you think the gathering is all about -- it is just to get all of us together like before, coz I miss those times.! Don't push and make it harder for me. Sorry... :(

To whom it may concern

2008-07-20T08:50:00.000-07:00

please click the image below for details
on reunion/gathering plans!

this invitation/picture made by Bebs.

WYWY KB

2008-07-17T23:38:00.000-07:00

Today as usual -- I have no plans at all... So I end up at WYWY with my sis and bro! I am pretty sure many people can be very busy at this times. Cannot wait for the gathering next week. I don't know if there will be a lot of changes or updates. But I am excited...

Everybody... The house (UK) issues has been resolved. I will not have to find a new house. Thanks to Erin's parents for sorting this out and letting me to have longer summer than I thought.! Thank you very much to Mick and Carmen for letting us to live in the house!!!

Now I can at least sit back and relax... a little longer. Now my smiles are back to my face! You should see how excited I was this morning knowing this good news!

God, I am not sure how long I have been at WYWY. At home, E-speed sucks! Perhaps going sooner now... Gotta run here and there to make myself busy OR else, I'll be so blue thinking he is not here close to me :)

That's all from me now!!!

Love, Bebs.Cho xoxo

spare some change

2008-07-17T08:43:00.000-07:00

Please donate me some of your money to my "Z770i FUND" LOLS

This phone is quite a hotness... QQeStore sell it for $378. This goes to my wish lists! Damn, mun nada problem with the house -- you would've be mine now... Baby I'll be able to bring you home sooner!

Love Love Love you my Z770i!!!!!

Vain Trio

2008-07-17T05:03:00.000-07:00

Taken last two days ago -- I think! At Panage Beach

@The Drink Shop

2008-07-17T04:54:00.000-07:00

bored day out

2008-07-17T04:34:00.000-07:00

So I did decide want to go to Peach's crib just now, to scan all the contracts to be sent by today. Too bad she is not home -- should have text her earlier. So then I thought Enong will be home, to be really honest I forgot she got a part time job as a teacher somewhere (sorry I have short term memory for now).

Well all of my unplanned plans were canceled then we head to Seria to get the job application for my sis... She got the form, and then I am craving for Coco Latte. When to Michael's! but erm boring nada pearl. Upset lah ku sal ani jua!

Usually at this time, I will be having a very good dinner with Seng... Take a lot of pictures, watch movies and friends. Or just went out to have dinner. :S Feel so miserable when you are attached with someone so much! *envy to those can still contact your halves frequently*

My time will some sooner or later...

For the time being I am still worried about the House Rent issues! It better be sooner or else I will be freaking broke -- no freaking way baby! You ain't taking my damn money outta my bank! God, if only you Ms. Landlady be damn extra freaking careful with your damn contracts! Take the money and re-let the house!

PS: I am just so mad with her putting me at this situation and not being responsible for her own stupid & selfish acts!

So far -- My day is just fine and happyyyyyyy

The Feelings

2008-07-16T23:29:00.000-07:00

He chatted with me on MSN today to greet me!
Too bad there is no camera and microphone on the internet cafe computer.
But I am very glad he is there for me, though in words :)
Thank you Thank you My K-Heart!

It is so wonderful
too wonderful I cannot describe in words.
<3 you a lot Jagiya!

PS: New looks for new days! This layout Rocks!

17th of Each months Magazine cover

2008-07-16T20:06:00.000-07:00

xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xox

Word of the day: Gila kali eh!

2008-07-16T19:16:00.000-07:00

Happy 8th Month Anniversary to me & my beloved SHC! Hotness... :)

Lydia do not push me so hard get my randomness bah! And I really want that bag! OMG hotness berabis like berabis! And it is like my favorite label of all (which I cannot afford to buy any of the hoodies or tees coz it is so Expensive -- my my).

Approximately 20 pound for this bag -- So ly save up, I promise you this is like my "advance" birthday gifts. Psst what you want for your B'day? :P Yg very cheap ja ah.

to be honest I do not even know what Lydia is doing now -- coz she has been quite for few minutes now. It is 3.23am in UK now what the heck Ly -- tidur wah!!!!!!! Adangtah jadi sundal bolong nda tidur ah... Gila kalie!!! Well actually I am suppose to be sad and totally shut down. Then my so-called other halves online (jgn kambangs ly) -- so apa lagi chat la benda2 yg tidak berfaedah. Sal nya kami like inda dpt tidur. 1024 hours in Brunei now -- I think only sleep for 3 hours today. There were a lot of things going on in UK especially with the landlady.

So juniors2 mun ada yg terbaca blog ani and kan study d uk -- in case if you are renting the house take your time to know the landlord/lady. Do not be fooled with all the promises and the look of the house. 1 word -- bullshit! Spread the words kamu! hihi. Awu bnr plg ani maybe kes ku ganya or I am being stupid. But it does not harm y'all to be cautious and fussy about the house.! Ask people yg pernah rent rumah before in UK -- that helped.

I don't think I have much to say -- sal Lydia force me to use the maximum capacity of my brain ability. My blood test for Arthritis or Gout will be in 2 weeks time (janji melayu ni, sebulan tu ertinya!) And pls pray for me that I won't any of these! Amin.

More to come - pictures of my bro, sis and I at Panaga Beach! Will get to it once I send it to my baby blue laptop! :)

until then, Assalamualaikum (wah baru tu ah aku say this! ;) )

Love, Bebs.C

Beaachhh

2008-07-14T06:28:00.000-07:00

Super Junior

2008-07-14T06:14:00.000-07:00

As I was watching MTV asia awards nominees... There is a video clip that makes me go "woah" and it was Super Junior. And how many are they in that group? OMG! They beat Spice Girls, Blue, or even PCD in terms of group members!

The thing is, I love the way they dance in "don't don" video clip... and the music is not bad. So youtube them, unfortunately some of their songs are quite cheesy, not my thing, if I don't get the wrong band. :P and no, not gonna try to like it coz they are Korean or something :P but I do respect them as an artist and Asian! Salute bebeh!

Girls out there who is "kipas susah mati" / die-hard-fan for this group, who do you think is hot? LOLS... Me? my Korean guy lah!!! Honestly, I think with the platinum white hair (dont know which one) & that weird looking dark hair dude.

PS: not falling for this band coz some of them are hot like I did to Linkin Park!! Mike Shinoda I still do have a crush on you! and Won Bin Oppa! hahaha

till then...

Miss you

2008-07-13T01:52:00.000-07:00

On the way back

2008-07-13T01:35:00.000-07:00

Okay dokie... I am now back in Seria... At last... Well I have been at Bandar for the weekends to report myself to the MOE and planned to go home on Friday. Something unexpected happened. My hand (thumb Especially) was swollen and excruciatingly painful! There are some pictures I took when I was in Bandar. Can you see that damn big glass?? It is 2 times my hand! You get this big at Ahan Thai (was it?) lols...

Well that night my bro in law cruised around Bandar to show the neon lights. It was beautiful!!! I cannot wait to meet his Majesty soon!!! Anyways, Happy 62nd Birthday Your Majesty and may Allah bless you always!!

And that blue sky was taken just now on the way home...

Better get going now... I'll update more often if possible...

Love, Bebs

2008-07-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

At some point, I don't care if people say my hair looks funny, somehow I Love it so so much...
Another few shots of my new hairstyle -- funny is the new black bah... LOLS

Today's shots from one of our favorite Indian restaurant, Kuala Belait

Atan & I

DOSAI DOSAI DOSAI - It was really hot and spicy, we were sweating like a pig....

Yeah it is fun to be home again with Atan & Nurul... Today I bought more Kingston Ice Cream, Chicken Tail and Butter Cookies. We laughed a lot too. God it has been a while not hanging out with them... It was really fun... Also, it has been a while jua nda makan Dosai & gila padas kuah2 nya atu... Apa lagi kan ku makan di Brunei ani? Awuuuu, pulut panggang...

Oh anyways, this is my Stage 1 Result, though I don't really like the 60's and 50's... My dad said, why 60's and 50's -- Stop fooling around and start concentrating. Do not be too complacent with your ability... God, Sebiji ku kana leh nya. My reason -- It was hard la dad.

Here you go:

MAS1402 88%
ACE1029 80%
ACC1003 76%
ACE1002 61%
ACE1003 53%
ACE1004 57%
BUS1005 78%

Average: 68.2

I'll update more soon! Hey I love this summer Holiday!!! The Best and meletup!

PS: Lydia how are you doing there, I am bored and lost without you darling... September Insya Allah we see each other and bergila g ah...

Until then... Ciao!

Miss my sister!!!

2008-07-05T04:18:00.001-07:00

Gaelle I MISS YOU A LOT!!!! it is good to see you again -- I will try to get someone's webcam, so you can see me next time. XoXo

Home Sweet Home

2008-07-05T03:46:00.000-07:00

[My new hair cut - its ugly but it'll grow :) ]

First of all sorry for not telling some of you that I am in Brunei earlier. I just meant to surprise you all...

So far my days are all good... I am now at Belait :) Bless KB!

I am happy that I am home but at the same time I miss Newcastle too. Part of my memories were there. Wish it is not just memories, I want it something continuous.

Flashback:

20th September 2007 -- My first flight to London, UK. I was in shock at that moment, not believing I made it this far in my Academic life. I never though of it. Thank you God.

For the first three months -- I did not eat properly or make lots of friends. I lost weight and pimplish :P

Met someone after those 3 months -- then I started a new beginning in my life. I start cooking proper food and gained weight (a lot of weight). I was happy and still am.

Henderson Hall was a great place until some immature people just came in. Too much noises, disgusting kitchen and toilet. These experiences are not valuable at all. God. It was really terrible experience!

Before I went home -- I went to Perth, Scotland visiting Alif. It was great to see him again... Then Cardiff, Wales, visited my girlfriend Lydia (a.k.a. Lady Lydia) -- we had so much fun & thanks for the days, food and everything else. It meant a lot to me. PS: Ly jaga tu Mylo-Bo ku banar-banar ah. Jangan lupa bagi ia minum... :)

June 08 -- I am in Brunei Darussalam!! I ate lots of Dim Sum and drank a lot of bubble tea!!! I bought lots of CD songs & I started driving again. I ate Shawerma. I ate my Dad's best lamb chop... Satay... And meet some of my friends... Hoping to see the rest... :)

It is almost 7.00pm in Brunei now... I wonder what is he doing there in Korea? Also where are all of my friends who's back to Brunei -- No contact bah you guys ani. Jumpa pun inda, busy banar kah??

Enjoy some of the pictures while I am in BRUNEI!!!

Reunion

2008-06-26T04:54:00.001-07:00

2 of the angels are with me now... after for so long missing them -- at last reunite. Like always they can just made my blood boiling and most of the times they made my day. They are all grown up...

Sneezy....

2008-06-23T02:46:00.000-07:00

Okay! This is freaking annoying! I have had cold for almost a week now... Like we both keep on sniffing... Gosh that's disgusting... I ate my medicine every day and it is not helping me.

The weather today is quite sunny, yesterday was sunny and WINDY

It has been weeks now... wonder what he is doing there back in his hometown. I miss him... the most...

We both have no plan today -- so guess we are just going to kill the time & watch America's next top model online again... Or perhaps something else...

I will post some pictures sooner...

Love,
Bebs

CARDIFFFFFF

2008-06-21T02:37:00.000-07:00

Today was a fun day out with Lydia! We had so much fun.. I laughed so hard and too much -- err loudest too.

My objectives were not just going out and enjoying Cardiff-ish environment, of course... LOL to "Cuci Mata". Banyak jua la abg-abg yang not bad, ada yg HOT... Ada Abg Cina, Ada Abg. Strada ( sal he works there & this guy is so a package) but nothing beat Moi (my) Seng Hwan :P:P

I do not really like walking, But since Lydia insisted to burn all this damn fats -- So I did! I was sweating and "ampus" coz Lydia walked faster than me. I don't know what is she made up of. Gosh.

I really Love Cardiff, The buildings are really nice and the environment is not bad at all, Cardiff is in my Favorite places list. I definitely come here again, perhaps Lydia and I should go to Swansea next time.

We are not sure what to do today - pre-plan was going to the National Meseum of Cardiff and "washing eyes".. Window Shopping... at the City Centre perhaps. I got cold again for the 5th day. I am really happy here being with Lydia, after for so long not meeting her.

Enjoy all the pictures, we went mad, crazy & the important thing is we both had fun & enjoy each other company. Ly, I must say I am glad to have you as a friend...

Well all the details are in http://www.lydia-choclover.blogspot.com/ -- if you are interested to know what happen. This is just an addition to it.. :P

At last -- I am out of Newcastle Hoho!!!!!!!!

Datin I want to go to GUA NIAH TOO!!! I AM SO JEALOUS.

PS: Anyone want to go to KOREA this Early SEPT? *:PP*

My summer

2008-06-19T14:11:00.000-07:00

I love that BLUE or whatever blue you want to call it. Lydia will buy that for me!
Didn't we look so HOT!!!?????
Do not bother that damn tag -- the important thing is I look damn CUTE

Me and Razan before playing football, Perth, Scotland
US again
Me
I love this one TOO!!!! :)

Hello everyone, how are you all today?

I am very fine here. I have not been going anywhere far yet. So far I only been to Perth, Scotland and right now in Cardiff, Wales.

Guess it is my 3rd day here -- I enjoyed my time just being with Lydia. Though, I miss Seng so much right now. To be honest I can't describe it in words at all... Sigh. Just too much for me to handle this time... I hope I will be ok sooner, I am improving & close enough to move on.

Anyways, today... Lydia and me went out, the day was so lovely. Sunny. I love Cardiff! First of, we went to the University & oh my god, it is a really nice interior design, and the outside is just damn posh! Goodness, I am jealous... Going to take some of the picture sooner :)

Then we went to the City Centre... Let me see what did we do... Erm, we went to Primark and try all those tees and dresses. yup it is all in the pictures! It was fun, of course I did not get anything. However I was tempted to buy the skirt... Should I?

Then we went to New Look, god I love these type of shops! Shoes, tees -- so damn marvellous! We tried some shoes, slippers and some accessories. Pictures itself tell you everything. We had fun -- well I had fun! haha

Oh yes then we also go to Ann Summers and Millies and hmmm... Whittard. Then we decided to get some food from TESCO. On the way back we were walking and there was time where we have to go across the road. Lydia just went off, so I followed her from behind coz I saw the car stopped. And suddenly there was a car with couple of aged guys in it said "Didn't you see the light is RED? You IDIOT!" I Got called IDIOT for some damn stupid reason! He is the who should stop not me, whatever you jerk!

Verdict says: My day was not bad so far. I am enjoying it but I miss him always, every second of my life. More updates sooner.

PS: Lydia and me is planning to go to Korea this early September -- if anyone is interested please tell me earlier. Korea, I will come one day! Kiss XX

Love,
Bebs.C

for him

2008-06-13T04:06:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentlemen

2008-06-13T03:30:00.000-07:00

After all of the tears and sadness I have been through for 5 days now -- I am feeling better now and Looking forward for my adventure!!

Yes I still miss him a lot, he meant the world to me... But the country is damn weird so girls and boys... if you think South Korea is that cool, do not think just one side of the story. :) One day I'll be there just to see him again... From now on I have to be prepared what the other 2 years of my life going to be for next term. No Seng and NO Gaelle... therefore Erin and me have to be there for each other now. Though she like to snatch my food *sigh* that is just her... She is kind but a food snatcher... Hahaha!! Sorry Erin!

Yea!!! I am going to go to Scotland or Scottie as Razan called it... :P I am really excited though people told me there is nothing much in Perth. I was like so? I want to see Alip!!!! Miss him!! God I miss a lot of people and thank you for the increase in allowance. Now I can go and have some fun!! WoooooHooooo!!!

My first sister is going to be in UK too -- So I am excited to see Bazillah and Mirul!!! Yes now I am in the mood of excitement to see these people!

Lydia you are next! I have loads of things to TELL and "SHARE" with you! Cannot wait! Alum ku pasang engine arah luggage ku, tunggu ku arah si alip lu. hahahaha

Talk to you guys soon

8th June 2008 -- he left

2008-06-08T09:27:00.000-07:00

God knows how hard to actually see him gone for 2 years. Just think not being with me for two years. He the one who always take care of me when I am sick, in need, a shoulder to cry on, tolerating with my tantrums. He is my everything. To see him go to day make me felt so devastated and destroyed. He has to go for a valid reason. I do know this would happen but not this soon.

Erin and me sent him to the airport today, had my last Starbucks Dulche de Leche with him. He said "What do you want to drink? I pay for ya..." -- me "Dulche de Leche!"-- him "Again?" -- Me "I like it!" -- him "OK!" Yeah he is so sweet and not to say quite territorial. No I don't hate him acting like that, beside I felt wanted and I love him for being that way :)

Honestly -- I did not talk that much with him. It just made me cry all the time in the airport.... So we just hang at the outside of the airport and just hug! He said he did not want to go -- that actually makes me feel damn sad. As if we are forced to be separated or something. Love is really blind -- isn't it.

Yup -- hug him when he went to the departure hall. That was the time I really broke down with tears up till now I am still crying. Thinking my days won't be as much as fun when he is around me. Waking up the mornings won't be as excited as to see him for breakfast. Watching friends won't be that funny anymore. He just left a trace of him all around me. I miss that now. Tomorrow every thing will be so different without Seng in my life. God-- please give me strength for this one. I might not be able to sleep tonight. So you guys -- I would appreciate you all do not ask about him for the time being till I get use to it.

I am sure that you all know how hard to let go someone that you love so much AND not coming back for next 2 years of school term. For the sake of seeing him, I'll study very hard and save more money to see him in Seoul during his army holidays.

Seng Hwan Cho, I love you so much. You are always miss here and everywhere I go!

DATIN HELEP ME

2008-06-05T15:32:00.000-07:00

Datin Nunong!! Boleh you check kan harga LG Viewty Purple?

Message saya mun sudah you ada terjumpa price nya. Model KU990. Can you please tell me what happen dangan telefon si atan ka? Akudangar kana ambil? Oleh sapa? Aku kan bali this new hp and sell all the other phones yg ku ada next year.. Iski ku ne kan bali hp ani. bah gtau aku ah. Aku menunggu ni.

Also I think I might be going to Scotland arah si Alip sebelum ku arah si lydia. pasal hall ku atu wa kana suruh berambus 15th june! 14th june ku kali arah ia mun ia mau menerima aku jua tu. Beb (alip) sudi kah ko menerima kazen mu yg homeless ani? (buat muka sepoen ku ne!)

In my eyes

2008-06-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody... I have packed 3 eighth of my things. To be honest -- this is not the best feelings ever. Seng is leaving to Korea on the 8th June 2008. Yes, I did cry a lot but I have to let him go. Both of us will just see how this relationship will go. We both knew that we cannot go against fate, if we are meant to be together -- nothing will stop us.

As for Gaelle -- she is really happy knowing that she'll move from Henderson Hell on 13th June 08. I will miss her too, I really do not know who I'll talk about my problems and calm me down. She always make me laugh, and think positive. Not to forget she always motivate me and be GRATEFUL all the time :)

My room is now quite empty -- just how it was when I first came here. My bro knew that I was damn sad when I entered the room for the first time. I almost cried -- I did. Went to the accommodation office and asked if there is any possibilities to actually move closer to the Uni or City centre. That did not happen -- so that's when I start my UK life in Henderson Hell. Was lonely and sad, crying every night thinking what the hell am I into.... But I am so grateful that I met Erin with her green mask on during fire alarm practise and met Gaelle (we both have no idea how we got so close!!!) -- of course Seng (my heart) met at Uni and lived in Henderson Hell :) Yup only 3 great people in this place. There are couple more but I am not that close with them coz... we just don't click!

I will post my room picture after I packed everything. Then you guys can picture how empty I feel right now. Wasting money might not be the best way to actually make myself happy -- but at least I feel better (girls do you agree?)..

Datin I am glad to know that they are coming to UK soon. I got surprises for Bazillah and Amirul!!!! I hope they will like it. Datin I hope to see you soon. I miss Nurul and Atan, how are they? Yes.... Sedih ku banar-banar masa ani, but jgn ingau aku arah Lydia nda batah lagi 17th June and arah Aming 25th June lapas atu kami akan jalan2 round Europe. europe trip kami. Tahun dapan jumpa ah, and hope your rumah pun siap sudah. Please kirim kan salam arah mama and bapa. To Bapa "happy advance (awal) father's day, sorry nada hadiah, doakan aku dapat first class tahun dapan so aku dapa balikan ia kerita Mercedes Benz dengan driver sekali! Love and miss you a lot"

Miz alum g aku and Lydia think where we are going -- France in September but for the rest of our summer holidays am not sure yet.

I better get back packing my things and sort everything out. Talk to you all soon ;)

Freedom

2008-06-03T15:26:00.000-07:00

Yes today is my last exam (by thhe post has been posted it should be yesterday!) Well the point is, I do think it was not a hard paper but I got the concept all wrong and I am pretty sure that I got it wrong too. However, I really hope when he mark it he will be a bit symphatising on my essays. Eco MCQs was the only thing I can hope for now to push my marks up. I seriously do not mind getting 40% overall for Eco.

Anyways, Management provisional result has been out, sadly in total I only got 56%, I did expect to get better than this. I am going to see my lecturer this 6th June for personal feedback. Finger cross he'll not bitch about anything. I am really sure I can pass the whole modules with exams apart from Eco.. I do not want my holiday with Lydia to be disturbed with resit! Other modules without exams atu, tawakal saja lah......

Datin awu I want to get the phone if aku hantar hp ku arah si atan. Ku dangar hp nya kana ambil. Apa hal? Boleh you becerita sedikit arah comment? dapat jua you type panjang2...

Miz awu freedom ku today -- you inda resit for the papers?? Well I am not that happy pulang abis exam ah until aku tau result ku. :( Whatever lah, janji pass atu ja yg ku harap kan....

More from me sooner before I leave Newcastle for my Europe Summer holiday!!

Management

2008-05-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

some random pictures while I am too bored to revise my notes -- it was too much for my precious "damaged" brain... (Dedicated to all of my Family in Brunei -- something for you guys there, I am fine and doing better here. Despite all the things that I hate here -- stupid drunk English bastard & filthy kitchen and toilet. Also I am damn sad that Seng and Gaelle will be leaving soon -- the two person who is sensible and mature enough to teach me to "grow" up and stand on my own.)

more Widemere Lake trip picture will be up soon after my exam :)

too bored too long too much

3 down and 1 more to go. the exam today was not so bad, thanks to my background and business teacher. It did help me a lot. The 90 MCQ questions were not that hard, considerably "anwserable"... LOLS

No I am not going back to Brunei anytime soon -- sesiapa yang kan sponsor aku balik please derma aku ah. lols. To enong jgn tah antar arah address lama ku. I will be at my friend and travel around europe sampai September 2008 pastu baru ku balik ke Newcastle and settle down, AND I will not live in that hall anymore (leaving for good).

OK people, I bet Economics will be bloody hard, just looked at my MCQ tests result -- bloody messed up. I am going to study really hard today :) I have to get another 40% for this one. Goodness..

Anyhooooo -- talk to you guys sooner.

Love and miss you all IN BRUNEI DARUSSALAM

You are you

2008-05-24T04:34:00.000-07:00

Greetings to all of my family members and friends.

Datin -- Thank you for all your support and prayers I really appreciate that. When I feel down and low, I read all the letters and cards you send to me. That's the least I can do for now. AND I do hope you write me more letters with all the updates at Brunei D.

Atan -- My beloved and whacky brother! How are you doing? Yeah It kinda upset me for few days knowing "Pwincess" is dead. It is time for them to go, they deserves a better place. And YYES! YES! YES! Aku mau main DRUM!!!!! OH MY GOD, you dapat DRUM for BIRTHDAY present! MA PA Aku mau restaurant yang jual Lamb Chop for my 22nd Birthday!!! uwaaaaaa!!!! and aku mau amah jua, wahahahahaah, tukang urut... hahaha.

Z197 - Zu is that you? Miss you too

Zati - Unfortunately duit tidak ada Zat, Bah abis ku exam aku transport diri ku ke luggage mu.

Accounting ??

2008-05-21T13:57:00.001-07:00

Gosh, my balance sheet did not balance. Well all the best.... for me... :( 3 to go!!!!

DAMN YOU HENDERSON HALL

2008-05-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

OI FIX THE BLOODY HOT WATER QUICK BAH! I WANT TO SHOWER NOW NOW NOW!!!! GOSH!!!!!!!!

BOH! My exam is tommorrow -- honestly I am not sure if I am ready or not. Goodness -- I better be READY! Eh I need shower waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

goodbye forever

2008-05-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

My beloved "gender-confused" Pwincess Hamster died long time ago I suppose. I just knew it today. No one told me earlier though I asked a lot of times. He had been a cute and fluffy hamster I've ever had... Pwincess, when I come back, I will not see you again but memories... I am sorry I was not there for you...

Well... It has been a very sad days for me. For the last 3 days I have been trying to fix my Baby (laptop) from breaking down. Guess somewhere and somewhat it was broken - not able to boot up, making strange noises. For now I have a couple possibilities what is wrong with it.

maybe the RAM is not installed properly OR moved... Do not know how the hell that happen
The keyboard perhaps boken
the last possibility is I forgot... lols.

Yep, Pwincess is dead, Baby (laptop) is in deep shit. Honestly, I have not been revising that much for now. I do not know why... Perhaps too lazy... Thinking too much of missing home and family. Also I just feel a bit behind from everybody back at home. I know you guys do not want me to worry... I just hope when I come back, everything will be fine... I am not ready to know anything sad or shitty.

Today - almost all of us cleaning the kitchen. I did not do much coz I only use the hob for cooking. Everything else I bring back to my room... and WASH them! Gosh, for once it looks like a KITCHEN with 2 SINKS and WIDE working space! Where the hell you girls (who do not clean) been living?

Better shower now... and do some revising. Do not want to screw my exams that bad... 40% ! I need that 40%!!!

Latest picture?

2008-05-09T09:06:00.000-07:00

Here you go, me with nothing much a change though. Seriously Lydia! I have to get rid of my damn FLABS!!! I'll show you what is under this T-SHIRT, hahahahaha!

* I am still who I am - Dark.Punkish.Not yet stylish *

sunny....

2008-05-09T08:46:00.000-07:00

Wow! I am blogging again! darn, I am just bored and slacking off from revision, which I suppose to do NOW. Seriously what the hell is the matter with me? Nyeh... who cares... Lets talk about today, OH MY GOODNESS, the weather is so sunny and I am heat up!!! Sweating like a pig (cute ones). Honestly speaking, I do not know how to handle if I am coming back to Brunei. Though I really miss the weather there. Air conditioner, cold showers.... Ahh miss those. But still, I have been living here for a while and used to the warm weather here... Not to be arrogant or anything, just thinking how sweaty I can get in Brunei.... hehe must be buckets of them!

People are Barbecuing outside, sun tanning - ME? trying to finish off all this stupid e-portfolios and reading. Not meant to do this. At the same time, I am trying to get a job here. Why nobody wants to HIRE ME? I need the cash baby! Sigh!

Now and then, I still have this "homesickness"... bet some of you guys or girls out there do to right? looking at the bright sight, I will meet Lydia soon!! (my motivator and a best friend!!) -at Cardiff! I will be bloody broke this few months. Do not ask why or how, I have no idea too! :(

Today's event in one of my typical day

There was no BUS1005 workshop unless you need help, why your e-mail has to be damn hard to understand? Make it simpler will ya?
I have GAPS and blanks in my Marketing Information Practice portfolio, Damn it!
Bought Millie's cookies again for £5.99 (18 cookies)
Went to Esquires and bought myself Mocha Frappe & hoping it is better than Starbucks - The taste? Sucks! Just crushed ice taste, where is the Mocha-ness taste? Wasted £2.85, drank half of the regular cups due to money reason!!
Walking really quickly to home coz the day was so "panas"... Now home at Erin's room, she got stable internet connection, that's why. she might hate me by now :P

That is all for now folks. I like this green colour.. Very lime-ish... to everyone in UK:

"I pray for all your success... and win this battle :)"

No more updates

2008-05-04T02:27:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody, I will not be updating this blog till exam ends. There are so much things have been going on in my life. I do not know where to start. Definitely will do my best to share it with you all. For now, all I need is blessings from my parents & family, pray for me to get a good result... Everybody - I need life-support here, it has been hard year for me... If anyone of you wish for something, think hard if this is what you really want... :)

Homesick

Lonely

Broke

Bad weather

Exam attacks

Lifeless

Emotionless

Dead inside

* Broken hearts and torn up letters*

Replies to Cbox

2008-04-29T03:15:00.000-07:00

Lisyah I am not sure if I am coming back to Brunei and if I do, I will contact you... but definitely ke France this September!!! Hehe

Datin Nunong I hope you are feeling well sooner, you have to get well soon and keep on motivating me!!! I need everyone support at this moment... Take care of yourself and don't get too sick always... I love you lots sis!!!

Lydia, haha, bila cuti summer ani kitani timbang lamak2 yg ada di badan tani. Let's see siapa jaguh mengumpul lamak2 d badan since Sept 07. Hehe... Saya tidak akan berputus asa, SMPW punya semangat tatap di hati!!! (aku reply in malay pasal blog mu mengutamakan bahasa melayu!!)

Was it a dream?

2008-04-29T03:00:00.000-07:00

I was not in a good mood yesterday. I do not know why. Somehow I questioned myself why would I do something for someone to just be part of them. There are doubts and maybe now racing in my head, almost kill me emotionally completely. I listened to my mp3 and guess what? I hate all the songs now. I used to hum them, memorize them... but now I feel empty, incomplete... Like I used to tell Alif, “someone completes my life puzzle.” Maybe I am not happy to be here because I did change my mind – not to be here. However, deep inside of me tells me to go. Yes, there are a lot of challenges I have faced for past 5/6 months since I am here. One thing for sure no maid to ask clean my room, carry my shopping bags or to massage me when I am feeling tired. When I am sick there is always someone who takes care of me – my family, Datin, Lina, Anti Siah. Perhaps I am homesick or maybe I just want to quit being here. When the time gets to tough, sometime I do not know how to face the rest of my day BUT crying. Today, I just feel nothing, as if nothing ever happened in my life. I do not know if whatever I am doing is now right or wrong, if this is what I really wanted to do. There is nothing for me to think but to end the exam’s misery.... I guess, I don’t really care whatever I want in my life for now. In the end, you will not get it, if you do; you have to lose everything to start building the new you. Nevertheless, I feel all right today, the sun heats my body up and the cold breeze blowing to my face. It feels so awkward and weird, it makes me sick... overall, I did have a good day. Now at home, will do some revision before another class at 3-5pm, another non-motivation factor to go to school, long hours of class!!! Till now, hope to see you girls and guys again sooner with some updates on my marvellous trip to THE BONESS OF WINDEMERE LAKE.

my 21st Night....

2008-04-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

the night was wrapped.....

These pictures taken before the dinner and food comes:

Seng and me waiting for the bus, it was freezing outside....

Pose for the camera Seng!!!

Do I remind you like the cleaner in SSB Hospital, KB??? or the male nurse??

A gift from my sister, Datin Nunong. It is really gorgeous...

Oh yes, come to mommy!!!! Half Chicken - Lemon Herb, Nandos

he was really enthusiast

look at the food - this was all minethe joy of food

Then the food finished....

Thursday morning

2008-04-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hey... today is a very sleepy day. I slept around half past 1 last night. Yes extensive revising (if that's what you call it) and also trying to figure out how the heck on earth to solve my freaking problem with the house. So far, doing well, I am coping and hoping somebody will really rent the house.

Chatting with Ben just now, was glad to hear from him. Yes I really miss KB people... God, I wish I am home now... Bubble Tea... WYWY...

Anyways, regarding allowance, I heard it was increased by 20%, we are getting this in May. Alhamdulillah ada jua labih2 to support me here. hehe...

I really don't know what to say actually, have been tired and busy with papers and books. I really cannot wait to end this soon and go to France!!!!

Birthday Hunting!!!

2008-04-17T04:09:00.000-07:00

We LOVE to SHOP in H & M.. Oh yes we spent the whole day trying all the clothes in H & M. and yes till the shop almost close we have not decide which one should we get. Therefore we are there for the sake of trying and be someone else for a moment.. :)
Above is a sweater with Bambi on it & I put a jacket to make it look good on me. The sweater itself don't work with me!!!!
I Love this RED dress so so much... However it was too revealing and not my style. Not to mention it was too long for my UNIQUE height... :P

Another shot of us being VAIN!!!
Though I like this Dress so much (coz it looks good on me with my red heels!!!), somehow it reminds me of the cleaner in KB hospital or a nurse... LOLS... You bet I got this one for my Birthday!!! (Thank you Seng!!!)
Vanity STRIKES!!!
No comment on this one :D
oh yes I am liking it!!!
That's what I wore on that same day!!Another one
and us AGAIN
While waiting Erin trying MORE clothes!!! (that's Christian, Erin's guy :PP )
That is my shoes!!!! at last my own red shoes!!!
Another pose of my "cleaner/nurse" dress

Will be here soon

2008-04-16T13:18:00.000-07:00

Putting all the pictures and comments on my 21st Birthday soon on Saturday perhaps. Today, there are so much things to do. I kind of got sick, probably eating too much of the Brazil nuts chocolate... Great.. no more of those for now...

Heard my nephew, Mirul was admitted to the hospital due to viral thingy... Fortunately he has been discharged from the hospital after 3 days if I was not mistaken... Hopefully everything will be ok with him... Miss all his stupid jokes and acts. Everytime I eat sausage - it reminds me of Mirul...

Though there are so much things I miss in Brunei (KB town!!!)... I miss these 3 angels who always brighten up my days when I am down & still loves me though I got mad with them... I love you little angels - you are growing so fast & sadly I cannot see that... Soon, I will....

2008-04-15T05:04:00.003-07:00

Happy 21 st Birthday to me... all the pictures will be up tomorrow!! Bet I will have a good one! :)

yippekayay!!!

2008-04-09T05:48:00.001-07:00

finally the things from Brunei is with me. I am so happy, there are my mom's biscuit (nyaman!!!), my favorite Cadbury Almond and Golden Crisp, Patchi lagie.... I got a present from Datin, though the bracelet is bigger than my wrists, still lawa. I am going to wear it during Birthday Dinner with Seng. Yay!! Kuih - Kuih Brunei, especially Kuih Jala my verrrrrryyyyyyyyyyy favourite!

However, my birthday this year will not be the same. Without my brothers and sisters. TO NURUL, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY. PLAY HARD, WORK HARD. PREZZIE NANTI JA KU KIRIM OK? I ALWAYS LOVE AND MISS YOU SIS!!!

YEAH... wish my other half (nurul) is here with me. I need you here to make me study hard too!!!!

Nong & everybody I present you the NEW Seng Hwan!!! Taadaa, does he still look like a kid???

The picture is a bit shaky coz took this picture on the bus....

Gotta go do work now. Adios...

From Liquid

2008-04-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

This was in Liquid, night was not bad but the music was. Had a good time with all of my friend. Some people just cannot dance that good and that's me. Haha.

Messages

2008-04-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

To Nunong: hehe, did you say it looks delicious? COCO POPS is the most delicious thing I ever put in my mouth!!! After I got tired eating malteasers!! lols. Thank you for everything, I really appreciate it so so much. And I am happy my nephews and niece are happy with the prezzie. For you all, nanti2 saja ah.... :P

To Alip: Sorry I was not there because there are so much things happen here. It has not settled yet, especially trying to find another room mate for this coming Aug 2008. If I will not find one... the answer is I will be broke for the rest of the year just paying it all by myself :( Anyway, Insya Allah tani jumpa nanti ok?

To Eqah: YAY! you were here again, btw mana updates? how's Zul and you? Have not hear anything "interesting" from you since our flirt!! hahahaha. I miss you girls... hugs

Spring Spring Spring

2008-04-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

Okay weather kinda suck today. I was suppose to be in Jesmond Dene visiting this pygmies goat!!! BUT it was snowing again today, since yesterday it has been cold and icy. It is spring for god sake, why snowing? I miss the vitamin E from the sun!!! I miss all my tees and pants that I always wear in Brunei. I miss dressing up casual without the thick weird feeling coat all around me!!

Here are the pictures from last night and today.... At least you guys can see how "growing" I am now :)

April Shopping

2008-04-02T09:52:00.000-07:00

was shopping for some food but still hoping someone would send me some money from home, coz need to pay for my bus pass this April, Datin hope you kaya soon, seriously need money for this month. and yeah I have not found anyone to rent the room yet & I did tell Delon about it, he said he'll try to help.

Today, I went to Fenham to get Halal stuffs. Tonight will be cooking Fried Chicken, god knows how the hell I am going to cook it coz I totally forgot how to, the ingredients, like my mum said "rojak" saja~ Will take some pictures of the food... will not be as good as my parents' but who cares... :P

Iman did you get the Ben 10 that you wanted? what was it? Ripjaws or something? if you did not get it tell me and I'll try to find it here. To my nephews & neice I hope you like your gifts from me. Hopefully muat arah kamu, mun nda muat, nanti ja ah lagi. hehehe.

Well - I think I better of reading some books now, do not want to screw me exams... grrr.... can't wait for mum's biscuits!!!!!

Miss home, miss Janai's Family!!! Kisses

addicted to this....

2008-04-01T09:46:00.000-07:00

COCO POPS!!! cant get a bigger picture of this, but this is top of my food list for now and malteasers.

For past 2 months I have cooked a lot of new things, sometimes in a cheating way - hehe. you know Uncle Ben's Sauce!! I ate seafood too!! BUT nothing can beat my mom's Crab!! and my Dad's lamb chop. God, seriously I am home sick now.... how I wish they can be with me right here, right now.... you guys back at home - BEBS Misses you guys TOO much!!! Hope to see you guys and girls really soon!

Messages

2008-04-01T07:17:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah I am quite all right now, I don't really have high temperature now, don't worry Seng is here looking after me. Today I am quite all right... I just had medicine...

Yeah he told me about the posting stuff... I will just wait for it... and FYI, I will not be going to Scotland anytime soon as no ka-ching! hehe. but we are all going to Windermere Lake for one day trip and perhaps for my birthday trip - Seng will treat me to Alnwick Castle where Harry Potter was filmed (I think!!!).

Other than this... my exam will be on 21st May, 28th May and 30th May and 3rd June for my last exam. I am not yet fully prepared yet, due to fooling around too much with PSP. Like I said, I am starting my revision now, :)

Nong, send my regards to everybody in Brunei Darussalam who knows me. Hopefully one day we will meet again, I seriously miss Brunei now.... somehow it is hard to admit that people are right about you will miss Brunei when you are far from it. Just because was born there and my family is there....

I will top-up my phone if I have enough money ok? for the time being let's just keep in touch here, ok sis?

Gotta go now, lotsa love,

Bebs

loading the updates

2008-04-01T06:55:00.000-07:00

okay dokie, it has been a while I do not go online and blog. I was so busy with things and got carried away with my PSP. I started revising my books now, guess holiday is quite over for me. Have to work really hard. For the mean time, I am still trying to figure out how the heck I can get connected with my PSP with this stupid University IVPN!

oh yeah, I think it was a week ago or something, Newcastle was snowing. It did not build up for few days coz it was too warm when it reached the ground. However, when I was shopping at Sainsbury's with Seng, the day was so cold but clear. After 20 minutes we were in Sainsbury's, all the road was white. WE were shocked and happy. That was what we were hoping for, one white day. Here are some of the pictures of me and the snow.

to nurul: here are the pictures.... it was a great snowy day... more to come people

weather today: Sunny with strong wind, temperature was not too cold!

for nunong

2008-03-19T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hi Nong...

Here is the things that I want from Brunei:

Cadbury Chocolate with Almond
Cadbury Crisp
Milo kotak cute - I don't know what else I want, coz aku nda mau jua banyak2 kirim.

Ada kawan ku msg or kol u? hope2 ia ingat ah....

the lavenderness

2008-03-12T05:01:00.000-07:00

at last it is here. got it yesterday :)

Nong, gtau atan check my blog out if he got the free time...

all of these pictures show me in action. Beb's Happy. no more F5-ing FedEx webpage, hahahaha

Monitoring "it"

2008-03-10T10:05:00.000-07:00

oooooohhhhh it is in London Stanstead now..... On the way to me.... This is so exciting...........

Just another updates and to share my excitement with you all.... where are you my youngest emo bro?

CHECKLISTS

2008-03-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

aaahhh finally I am home. I am happy today as I chatted with some of my bestest friends on MSN just today. Got few updates from Brunei, which is good too. Well, I heard the Government is considering to raise overseas' student allowance, the decision will be made in 2 or 3 days (or longer). Hopefully, they will 'coz I am struggling paying my hall here. :) Ka----Ching Ka----ching!!!

Just today, got my 4GB Sony Pro Duo Memory Stick! Cheaper di sini tu Tan! (if he is reading this) and tomorrow will be my Bestest day. to everybody, above is my new hair cut, I will post more as the picture isn't with me.... still i like it!!!

CHECKLISTS

PSP Lavender Slim & Lite Note: by FedEx, 11th March 2008 @ 6pm
4GB Sony Pro Duo Mem. Stick Note: Received Today
Downgrader Kit Note: Received 11th March 2008
Sexy hot Pouch Note: Waiting

more updates soon

No SHOPPING

2008-03-08T04:34:00.000-08:00

Oh Hey Gurlies, thanks for tagging along my blog.

Yeah Savvy I am (still) busy-ing with my weekends... Grrr, How are you doing darlings?? I will post the pics very very soon. The FedEx said... "Item has left the origin (HK)" 11th March is expected arrival date for me PSP SLIM!!! oh I still remember playing PS at your place, I miss the old times :D

Ly & Zat My migraine should be all right by now, it was a terrible night for me, :( BUT BUT I am ok now, YAY!

Hai Stells!

Haha, just wait for the pics la darlings coz muka ku ani wa berjerawat hahahahaha. Oh God Beb misses you loads. hope to see you girlies sooner.

Anyway - I am here to just spill my feelings out here :P God when is it going to stop being windy here in Newcastle? I need to shop some food in Fenham my Lord.... ahhhh Please stop the wind. Thank you.

early windy...

2008-03-06T04:06:00.000-08:00

Today might be the worst day of my life... Why? Because I got Migraine since last night. However, today my Datin text me that my mum already got my Mother's Day card and small gift, I am happy that she loved it.

One more thing that enlightened my day so bad today is I AM GETTING MY PSP LAVENDER SO SO SO SOON. Tan! Siuk ne dapat main sama2 nanti kalau ku balik Brunei!!! Wooohhoooo Can't wait lah Tan!!!

The other side of my story is (sad & depressing) I have not finish reading the bloody Guinness book!!! 1500 words report to write... I definitely do it today. Still I am happy and blessed so far. Thank you God.

Last week has been great for me to coz my brother visited me, after for so long... I do miss him sometimes... whatever happen between us, deep inside him, I know he is still my very bestest friend in the world. :)

Didn't turn up to lecture today due to extreme Migraine lucky I got my medicine with me. I was crying all night long on my Air Mattress *hahahaha, yup detail!!!*

Great, the weather here in March is so damn windy.... It feels like something piercing your skin if the wind blows to your face & body. Can't wait for summer in France!

OK dokie, I think I'll wrap everything here. Pssstt!! I got my new haircut! :P

PS: Nong inda ku jadi ke Scotland bulan ani, bulan April ku jalan sama my beloved sister angkat Gaelle. hehehe.

Happy Ms Janai!

Exam grades

2008-03-04T08:32:00.000-08:00

MARKETING 68% - ONLY 30% ACCOUNTED TO FINAL EXAM

MATHS 88% - That's my final marks :D

ACCOUNTING 80% - ONLY 25% ACCOUNTED TO FINAL EXAM

ECONOMICS 15/30 (1ST TEST), 16/30 (2ND TEST) - ONLY 10% ACCOUNTED TO FINAL MARK EACH

MANAGEMENT REPORT 67% - ONLY 30% ACCOUNTED TO FINAL MARK

Others I have no idea when will I get he result or at least feedback, don't care don't want to know...

Quite busy this 2 weeks.... lots of things to do, assignment, housemate hunting.... hopefully things will go smoothly tomorrow.

I am still waiting HSBC and PayPal to verify my account! I can't wait to get my Lavender PSP my 4GB Memory Stick Pro Duo is on the way, it is only for £22.99. Getting my magic kit for me PSP for USD$48.98 (£25.31) and PSP SLIM is £116.99!!! WOAH!!! oh well, I will post pictures in 2 weeks time (like i mention before).

So odd my friends don't really say HI to me here or facebook.... very oddddd..... whatever, hope they are fine and happy.

Day today is quite chilly and oh yeah it was a bit of icy and sunny and windy too, GREAT!!!

Updates Updates

2008-03-02T08:27:00.000-08:00

To everybody who is asking about my Updates.

I am still alive, I passed all of my exams for smester 1 so far. I will upload photos in next two weeks. As I am quite busy with workloads and my brother was here. Weekened was great. I got my air mattress YAY! I got my purple adidas shoes. I am getting PSP lavender Slim soon. I am going to Scotland in March. 26th April 2008 I am going to Windemere Lake & camping with me friends.

What else can I tell... Zati this is my updates. More will be up in 2 weeks time... Can't wait to get over this year and relax.... Love you all lots. Hugs

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OF MY ELDEST SISTERS AND MY MOM!

to my dearest sister

2008-02-06T07:12:00.000-08:00

Nong ko click ja gambar yg showing ah, then ada tia gambar basar ia buka window baru tuu.... mun payah2 ask abg raman, hehehehe.. miss you sis

To my dearest family

2008-02-03T12:38:00.000-08:00

To Lina & Family: how are you guys doing? Bazillah and Mirul sihat? Tell them I miss them lots. And please bagitahu anti siah yg Beb rindu ia tersangat2.. "anti milo shake please"...

To Nunong and Family: Thanks to you and Lina for the food. Abg. Jame how are you? Iman... Love you lots.

Eh Abg Raman, kalau kan reply, click ja comment yer... Mahal bah kalau kan surat menyurat ani... Bagitahu kan Nunong ah and Lina about this blog. Thanks. Love you all.

London Trip / Egham 2

2008-02-03T06:58:00.000-08:00

London Trip to Egham 1

2008-02-03T06:36:00.000-08:00

Snooowww

2008-02-03T06:29:00.000-08:00

Weekend Trip

2008-02-03T06:16:00.001-08:00

Here are some of the pictures as I promised.... Well there is not many to be shared but still, I think it's enough to show you what Newcastle upon Tyne.

1st February I love you

2008-02-01T02:27:00.000-08:00

It has been 2 weeks... 2 weeks with 28p in my bank account. and Today is the day I am (so-called) rich!

This month (have to) payment:

Henderson Hall £357.39 (no internet access most of the times in my room, how cool. so I decided to waste the water and electricity while I can :P)
Buss pass which is A MUST get too coz my Hall is 3 miles away from UNI!!! Darn it. £27.00
Of course (me being stupid) signed a contract for 18 months phone. £21.00+ (supposedly I could've get O2 and get monthly free allowance for texts). Sigh. So anyone thinking getting contract phones, think twice.
therefore every month spending (not food or clothing) = £411.39 (estimation)

P/S: Teacher dapat dah you write comment tu... I changed the settings... how come you cannot get gmail account????

Tee Hee Hee

2008-01-31T06:22:00.001-08:00

To Teacher Rashidah: of course you can go to my blog as this is my new one. The old one was invited readers only due to some personal reasons la. Life is quite fine here. Guess this is what I really wanted... :) Marketing course is not bad but I think I kind of screw my Marketing MCQ. Others are okay. The thing is, I am not sure what Management lecturer is up to for this May Exams, hate him so much. He only talks about car for God sake. Cher, apa kan tu nama kadai ah? is it a famous food brand?

Wednesday

2008-01-30T01:27:00.000-08:00

Yay no class every Wednesday for the whole smester..

Today's Plans:

Go to Union & Castle Leazes Park with Seng - The weather isn't bad but still Frrrreeezzzinggg.
Finish my BUS1005 Assignment (last minute)
Go out with the girls and my boy (lecture starts at 10am tomorrow - yay!)

Pictures of my Weekend trip around Newcastle will be uploaded on Sunday perhaps. Just want to give you guys a picture of Newcastle Upon Tyne :)

new bloggie

2008-01-27T18:02:00.000-08:00

due to my personal reason I have to change my entire blog... Therefore there will be only new updates from now on. Pictures will be loaded shortly.... :) many sorry guys