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Lisyah I am not sure if I am coming back to Brunei and if I do, I will contact you... but definitely ke France this September!!! Hehe

Datin Nunong I hope you are feeling well sooner, you have to get well soon and keep on motivating me!!! I need everyone support at this moment... Take care of yourself and don't get too sick always... I love you lots sis!!!

Lydia, haha, bila cuti summer ani kitani timbang lamak2 yg ada di badan tani. Let's see siapa jaguh mengumpul lamak2 d badan since Sept 07. Hehe... Saya tidak akan berputus asa, SMPW punya semangat tatap di hati!!! (aku reply in malay pasal blog mu mengutamakan bahasa melayu!!)

Was it a dream?

I was not in a good mood yesterday. I do not know why. Somehow I questioned myself why would I do something for someone to just be part of them. There are doubts and maybe now racing in my head, almost kill me emotionally completely. I listened to my mp3 and guess what? I hate all the songs now. I used to hum them, memorize them... but now I feel empty, incomplete... Like I used to tell Alif, “someone completes my life puzzle.” Maybe I am not happy to be here because I did change my mind – not to be here. However, deep inside of me tells me to go. Yes, there are a lot of challenges I have faced for past 5/6 months since I am here. One thing for sure no maid to ask clean my room, carry my shopping bags or to massage me when I am feeling tired. When I am sick there is always someone who takes care of me – my family, Datin, Lina, Anti Siah. Perhaps I am homesick or maybe I just want to quit being here. When the time gets to tough, sometime I do not know how to face the rest of my day BUT crying. Today, I just feel nothing, as if nothing ever happened in my life. I do not know if whatever I am doing is now right or wrong, if this is what I really wanted to do. There is nothing for me to think but to end the exam’s misery.... I guess, I don’t really care whatever I want in my life for now. In the end, you will not get it, if you do; you have to lose everything to start building the new you. Nevertheless, I feel all right today, the sun heats my body up and the cold breeze blowing to my face. It feels so awkward and weird, it makes me sick... overall, I did have a good day. Now at home, will do some revision before another class at 3-5pm, another non-motivation factor to go to school, long hours of class!!! Till now, hope to see you girls and guys again sooner with some updates on my marvellous trip to THE BONESS OF WINDEMERE LAKE.

my 21st Night....

the night was wrapped.....

These pictures taken before the dinner and food comes:

Seng and me waiting for the bus, it was freezing outside....

Pose for the camera Seng!!!

Do I remind you like the cleaner in SSB Hospital, KB??? or the male nurse??

A gift from my sister, Datin Nunong. It is really gorgeous...

Oh yes, come to mommy!!!! Half Chicken - Lemon Herb, Nandos

he was really enthusiast

look at the food - this was all minethe joy of food

Then the food finished....

Thursday morning

Hey... today is a very sleepy day. I slept around half past 1 last night. Yes extensive revising (if that's what you call it) and also trying to figure out how the heck on earth to solve my freaking problem with the house. So far, doing well, I am coping and hoping somebody will really rent the house.

Chatting with Ben just now, was glad to hear from him. Yes I really miss KB people... God, I wish I am home now... Bubble Tea... WYWY...

Anyways, regarding allowance, I heard it was increased by 20%, we are getting this in May. Alhamdulillah ada jua labih2 to support me here. hehe...

I really don't know what to say actually, have been tired and busy with papers and books. I really cannot wait to end this soon and go to France!!!!

Birthday Hunting!!!

We LOVE to SHOP in H & M.. Oh yes we spent the whole day trying all the clothes in H & M. and yes till the shop almost close we have not decide which one should we get. Therefore we are there for the sake of trying and be someone else for a moment.. :)
Above is a sweater with Bambi on it & I put a jacket to make it look good on me. The sweater itself don't work with me!!!!
I Love this RED dress so so much... However it was too revealing and not my style. Not to mention it was too long for my UNIQUE height... :P

Another shot of us being VAIN!!!
Though I like this Dress so much (coz it looks good on me with my red heels!!!), somehow it reminds me of the cleaner in KB hospital or a nurse... LOLS... You bet I got this one for my Birthday!!! (Thank you Seng!!!)
Vanity STRIKES!!!
No comment on this one :D
oh yes I am liking it!!!
That's what I wore on that same day!!Another one
and us AGAIN
While waiting Erin trying MORE clothes!!! (that's Christian, Erin's guy :PP )
That is my shoes!!!! at last my own red shoes!!!
Another pose of my "cleaner/nurse" dress

Will be here soon

Putting all the pictures and comments on my 21st Birthday soon on Saturday perhaps. Today, there are so much things to do. I kind of got sick, probably eating too much of the Brazil nuts chocolate... Great.. no more of those for now...



Heard my nephew, Mirul was admitted to the hospital due to viral thingy... Fortunately he has been discharged from the hospital after 3 days if I was not mistaken... Hopefully everything will be ok with him... Miss all his stupid jokes and acts. Everytime I eat sausage - it reminds me of Mirul...

Though there are so much things I miss in Brunei (KB town!!!)... I miss these 3 angels who always brighten up my days when I am down & still loves me though I got mad with them... I love you little angels - you are growing so fast & sadly I cannot see that... Soon, I will....

Happy 21 st Birthday to me... all the pictures will be up tomorrow!! Bet I will have a good one! :)

yippekayay!!!

finally the things from Brunei is with me. I am so happy, there are my mom's biscuit (nyaman!!!), my favorite Cadbury Almond and Golden Crisp, Patchi lagie.... I got a present from Datin, though the bracelet is bigger than my wrists, still lawa. I am going to wear it during Birthday Dinner with Seng. Yay!! Kuih - Kuih Brunei, especially Kuih Jala my verrrrrryyyyyyyyyyy favourite!

However, my birthday this year will not be the same. Without my brothers and sisters. TO NURUL, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY. PLAY HARD, WORK HARD. PREZZIE NANTI JA KU KIRIM OK? I ALWAYS LOVE AND MISS YOU SIS!!!

YEAH... wish my other half (nurul) is here with me. I need you here to make me study hard too!!!!

Nong & everybody I present you the NEW Seng Hwan!!! Taadaa, does he still look like a kid???

The picture is a bit shaky coz took this picture on the bus....

Gotta go do work now. Adios...

From Liquid

This was in Liquid, night was not bad but the music was. Had a good time with all of my friend. Some people just cannot dance that good and that's me. Haha.

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To Nunong: hehe, did you say it looks delicious? COCO POPS is the most delicious thing I ever put in my mouth!!! After I got tired eating malteasers!! lols. Thank you for everything, I really appreciate it so so much. And I am happy my nephews and niece are happy with the prezzie. For you all, nanti2 saja ah.... :P

To Alip: Sorry I was not there because there are so much things happen here. It has not settled yet, especially trying to find another room mate for this coming Aug 2008. If I will not find one... the answer is I will be broke for the rest of the year just paying it all by myself :( Anyway, Insya Allah tani jumpa nanti ok?

To Eqah: YAY! you were here again, btw mana updates? how's Zul and you? Have not hear anything "interesting" from you since our flirt!! hahahaha. I miss you girls... hugs

Spring Spring Spring

Okay weather kinda suck today. I was suppose to be in Jesmond Dene visiting this pygmies goat!!! BUT it was snowing again today, since yesterday it has been cold and icy. It is spring for god sake, why snowing? I miss the vitamin E from the sun!!! I miss all my tees and pants that I always wear in Brunei. I miss dressing up casual without the thick weird feeling coat all around me!!

Here are the pictures from last night and today.... At least you guys can see how "growing" I am now :)

April Shopping

was shopping for some food but still hoping someone would send me some money from home, coz need to pay for my bus pass this April, Datin hope you kaya soon, seriously need money for this month. and yeah I have not found anyone to rent the room yet & I did tell Delon about it, he said he'll try to help.

Today, I went to Fenham to get Halal stuffs. Tonight will be cooking Fried Chicken, god knows how the hell I am going to cook it coz I totally forgot how to, the ingredients, like my mum said "rojak" saja~ Will take some pictures of the food... will not be as good as my parents' but who cares... :P

Iman did you get the Ben 10 that you wanted? what was it? Ripjaws or something? if you did not get it tell me and I'll try to find it here. To my nephews & neice I hope you like your gifts from me. Hopefully muat arah kamu, mun nda muat, nanti ja ah lagi. hehehe.

Well - I think I better of reading some books now, do not want to screw me exams... grrr.... can't wait for mum's biscuits!!!!!

Miss home, miss Janai's Family!!! Kisses

addicted to this....

COCO POPS!!! cant get a bigger picture of this, but this is top of my food list for now and malteasers.

For past 2 months I have cooked a lot of new things, sometimes in a cheating way - hehe. you know Uncle Ben's Sauce!! I ate seafood too!! BUT nothing can beat my mom's Crab!! and my Dad's lamb chop. God, seriously I am home sick now.... how I wish they can be with me right here, right now.... you guys back at home - BEBS Misses you guys TOO much!!! Hope to see you guys and girls really soon!

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Alhamdulillah I am quite all right now, I don't really have high temperature now, don't worry Seng is here looking after me. Today I am quite all right... I just had medicine...

Yeah he told me about the posting stuff... I will just wait for it... and FYI, I will not be going to Scotland anytime soon as no ka-ching! hehe. but we are all going to Windermere Lake for one day trip and perhaps for my birthday trip - Seng will treat me to Alnwick Castle where Harry Potter was filmed (I think!!!).

Other than this... my exam will be on 21st May, 28th May and 30th May and 3rd June for my last exam. I am not yet fully prepared yet, due to fooling around too much with PSP. Like I said, I am starting my revision now, :)

Nong, send my regards to everybody in Brunei Darussalam who knows me. Hopefully one day we will meet again, I seriously miss Brunei now.... somehow it is hard to admit that people are right about you will miss Brunei when you are far from it. Just because was born there and my family is there....

I will top-up my phone if I have enough money ok? for the time being let's just keep in touch here, ok sis?

Gotta go now, lotsa love,

Bebs

loading the updates

okay dokie, it has been a while I do not go online and blog. I was so busy with things and got carried away with my PSP. I started revising my books now, guess holiday is quite over for me. Have to work really hard. For the mean time, I am still trying to figure out how the heck I can get connected with my PSP with this stupid University IVPN!

oh yeah, I think it was a week ago or something, Newcastle was snowing. It did not build up for few days coz it was too warm when it reached the ground. However, when I was shopping at Sainsbury's with Seng, the day was so cold but clear. After 20 minutes we were in Sainsbury's, all the road was white. WE were shocked and happy. That was what we were hoping for, one white day. Here are some of the pictures of me and the snow.







to nurul: here are the pictures.... it was a great snowy day... more to come people

weather today: Sunny with strong wind, temperature was not too cold!