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SMSA-ians Gathering....

Thanks for those who come and brought food. You all made my day & I am really sure that after this gathering we might not see each other for a long time again. Back to school, work, uni & etc etc.

For so long I have not feel this happy & laugh this hard... I feel belong again! Next year, we should do it somewhere else and during weekend lah ah~~ So we can do it earlier, you know curfew bah mun buat di rumah2 ani... Weng~ To my parents we are all still kids, normal lah tu Parents kan...

Thanks to those who come and brought the food and yg bawa parut kosong:

Guys: The big guys: Jason, Nabil, Agym & Gmax (jgn ijap aku drive bahhh). Razdy (ko jahat!), Omar (ko pun jahat sama aku!!!), Syaza, Jambri, Nazmi, Aiman, Nirul, Bob, Hambri, G-min, Huffy

Girls: Pij, Aimi, Waniks (You are still one hot momma!), Wan "Coke" - (ampit kah ko tadi?), Stels, Didah, Amoy, Zaty Horsey, Efna (bila ice-cream ah?)

Did I forget anyone?? If I do, I'll add your names up sooner, don't worry.

Special thanks to: Nurul & Atan, Anti Siah, my mom too


Pictures pending... :) Well I think I'll update on this sooner...

Thanks for the nights you all SMSA-ians -- it meant a lot to me and everybody else! :D many thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If only

... you knew how it feels to keep it low ...
... you knew I never meant to ...
... you knew none is anyone's fault ...
... you knew you meant a lot to me ...
... you knew I fell for you ...
... you knew I miss him being close to me ...
... you all knew how the heck these feelings are killing me deep inside ...

--different feelings for each of my 1001 worries --

Count me in, you all rocks!

I am really packed for the whole day. First – Peach I am sorry I did not get to you as soon as I was home. I picked up my sister from school earlier than expected, since her Geo teacher cancelled the class. X( We went to KB town for a “mission” and errr we bought drinks from Jollybean! As usual Coffee & Cookies with pearl... And Nabil though you pay for the apple juice, you still owe me this. 2 kan u janji? Wengs~ wengs~ wengs~ (my new sound effect). Then off to Pustaka Remaja to photocopy all these documents for my CRB (Criminal Record Bureau) form. PS: I am not a criminal bah Newcastle Careers Service!!!!

Then from KB I rushed back home around 3.30PM – once home, I have been trying to call my nephew and niece in UK on Skype (there were technical problems) – but unsuccessful. Why you can only see me but I cannot see you eh!!?? So so biasalah janji Malayu kan – I came late for the Wazirian’s Girls Gathering, was there about 4.05PM maybe. I am glad some of us turn up & ada yg inda turn up atu jgn tah worry we will meet again... to those who “andang” cannot turn up coz you are somewhere then we did not forget you ok? Seriously Mizz where the heck are you!?
Thank you Zita “hantu wa mata mu aaaa”, Saf (unpredictable jua u ani sometimes), Lalitha (you horny bitch!), Linna (seriously contact my sister if you straighten hair again), Siaw Yen (wow, you are still the “talker”), Filah or as I call “Phil” (you made it! Thanks. You I love, ehe), Eqah (you damn hot chix, nda marah si Zul arah aku nie? Wengs~) – you girls made my day! Picturessss please!!!! – we were at the beach till kinda night :PP

7.05PM – rushing getting ready to go for another “date”. I drove to pick up Enong (love you babe)! To go for perayaan di KB ah! Lucky we got car park at NBT... yay! Talked to her, had dinner with her (Ahads Burger ROCKS!!!!). I met Ummi there, hi Ummi!!!! Bila inda busy hang out lagi ok? Then we went to see some of the performance. Met some old friends and juniors. AND among all of people, I met Helmi and Aimi moi Bitchhhhhh....... Seriously I am glad to see you both!! And Enong thanks for being with me whole night listening to my rants... :)
11.00PM drove back home... daddy msg dah~

Anyways I am happy to see some of you at random place.
Pictures will be uploaded when I got them in my lappie.
Woot~ Woot~

not cool

I am sorry to those who did not know about Wazirians Girls gathering today, I have sent e-mail, msgs and hoping some of you spread the news to the others. & we all were hoping to see all of you turn up! I did my best. And getting all these "upsetting" msgs from MSN, and mobile phones are not cool at all.

I do not have to deal with friends who I trust and value the most throwing such allegations to my FACE. Some of the things does not have to be personal invitations and sometimes it is not my own responsibility to inform every single thing to you. I respect you as a friend so please understand and do the same.... I am sorry but I am really disappointed with these matters.

If we are really friends... which you value the most? not getting invited personally by me (when its not my plan) or throwing these allegations to my face? You decide. I am done apologizing and explaining....

Thank you for understanding me that much and judging me this way.. I am really done admitting things I did not do on purpose...

Signing out...

untitled

still have the cold. I saw Alif's and Emie's video on their blog -- I am impressed, very deep indeed :P and I am glad things work out so well for them :D also to Lydia, hehe. u still owe me a "cover story"... aahhh being random again. :)

I really can't wait to go to Korea... *pause*

if... I go this September... at least I see him before he go for army. and for another 2 years... we might not be able to contact each other... no one knows what'll happen after 2 years anyways. so I rather go this September and enjoy every seconds with him... you will be missed Jagiya. :)

i am looking forward for the gathrings and all. tonight perhaps i am going to perayaan with one of my close friend -- Enong. since i promise her lama dah kan... so i better... :) see u later tonight darling...

yesterday went to C.A Mohd, Seria with Saf & Zati -- to be honest your car is hot Saf!! it is great to see you again darls. if anyone stalks you again -- tell me! too bad tani nada gambar sama2. but later baik tah vain!

guess im going to sleep again now... this cold is really bugging me :(

Unwell

If only you know I miss you so
If only you know how much you meant to me
& if you knew -- just let me be the one for you

Today, Pij was here. Glad she was there for me! I had enough people making up stories. So whatever (you know who you are Mr....). I feel so not good today. Woke up late till Pij came into "my room"... God I looked terrible.
I'll upload some photos on my weekends soon perhaps.

Love, Bebs

PS: To all the Wazirians please confirm with me if there is actually reunion this Wednesday!!! I myself cannot contact you all personally, so please spread the words!! Thank you very much.

To my Dearest Friend

There are many things we do not understand in this life... I usually don't.

To fall in love is so easy~ but to keep on loving someone is never been easy. Keep your spirit high & do not change a thing about you coz changes do not make anything any perfect... Time will tell what our "other" side of life should be.

To someone (you know who you are) -- I do not need to be blamed for not telling you about all this plans. You are not even left out by me. It was a plan & about to tell everybody. You are not the last person to know. We all would love to have you there with us if there is any possibilities! I am really sorry from the bottom of my heart... All I hope is you not to think I left you out. All of my friends are my priorities. Somehow, you thought I ditched you... That hurt me the most! Whatever you think the gathering is all about -- it is just to get all of us together like before, coz I miss those times.! Don't push and make it harder for me. Sorry... :(

To whom it may concern

please click the image below for details
on reunion/gathering plans!

this invitation/picture made by Bebs.

WYWY KB

Today as usual -- I have no plans at all... So I end up at WYWY with my sis and bro! I am pretty sure many people can be very busy at this times. Cannot wait for the gathering next week. I don't know if there will be a lot of changes or updates. But I am excited...

Everybody... The house (UK) issues has been resolved. I will not have to find a new house. Thanks to Erin's parents for sorting this out and letting me to have longer summer than I thought.! Thank you very much to Mick and Carmen for letting us to live in the house!!!

Now I can at least sit back and relax... a little longer. Now my smiles are back to my face! You should see how excited I was this morning knowing this good news!

God, I am not sure how long I have been at WYWY. At home, E-speed sucks! Perhaps going sooner now... Gotta run here and there to make myself busy OR else, I'll be so blue thinking he is not here close to me :)

That's all from me now!!!

Love, Bebs.Cho xoxo

spare some change

Please donate me some of your money to my "Z770i FUND" LOLS

This phone is quite a hotness... QQeStore sell it for $378. This goes to my wish lists! Damn, mun nada problem with the house -- you would've be mine now... Baby I'll be able to bring you home sooner!

Love Love Love you my Z770i!!!!!

Vain Trio

Taken last two days ago -- I think! At Panage Beach

@The Drink Shop

bored day out

So I did decide want to go to Peach's crib just now, to scan all the contracts to be sent by today. Too bad she is not home -- should have text her earlier. So then I thought Enong will be home, to be really honest I forgot she got a part time job as a teacher somewhere (sorry I have short term memory for now).

Well all of my unplanned plans were canceled then we head to Seria to get the job application for my sis... She got the form, and then I am craving for Coco Latte. When to Michael's! but erm boring nada pearl. Upset lah ku sal ani jua!

Usually at this time, I will be having a very good dinner with Seng... Take a lot of pictures, watch movies and friends. Or just went out to have dinner. :S Feel so miserable when you are attached with someone so much! *envy to those can still contact your halves frequently*

My time will some sooner or later...

For the time being I am still worried about the House Rent issues! It better be sooner or else I will be freaking broke -- no freaking way baby! You ain't taking my damn money outta my bank! God, if only you Ms. Landlady be damn extra freaking careful with your damn contracts! Take the money and re-let the house!

PS: I am just so mad with her putting me at this situation and not being responsible for her own stupid & selfish acts!

So far -- My day is just fine and happyyyyyyy

The Feelings

He chatted with me on MSN today to greet me!
Too bad there is no camera and microphone on the internet cafe computer.
But I am very glad he is there for me, though in words :)
Thank you Thank you My K-Heart!

It is so wonderful
too wonderful I cannot describe in words.
<3 you a lot Jagiya!

PS: New looks for new days! This layout Rocks!

17th of Each months Magazine cover

xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xox

Word of the day: Gila kali eh!

Happy 8th Month Anniversary to me & my beloved SHC! Hotness... :)

Lydia do not push me so hard get my randomness bah! And I really want that bag! OMG hotness berabis like berabis! And it is like my favorite label of all (which I cannot afford to buy any of the hoodies or tees coz it is so Expensive -- my my).

Approximately 20 pound for this bag -- So ly save up, I promise you this is like my "advance" birthday gifts. Psst what you want for your B'day? :P Yg very cheap ja ah.

to be honest I do not even know what Lydia is doing now -- coz she has been quite for few minutes now. It is 3.23am in UK now what the heck Ly -- tidur wah!!!!!!! Adangtah jadi sundal bolong nda tidur ah... Gila kalie!!! Well actually I am suppose to be sad and totally shut down. Then my so-called other halves online (jgn kambangs ly) -- so apa lagi chat la benda2 yg tidak berfaedah. Sal nya kami like inda dpt tidur. 1024 hours in Brunei now -- I think only sleep for 3 hours today. There were a lot of things going on in UK especially with the landlady.

So juniors2 mun ada yg terbaca blog ani and kan study d uk -- in case if you are renting the house take your time to know the landlord/lady. Do not be fooled with all the promises and the look of the house. 1 word -- bullshit! Spread the words kamu! hihi. Awu bnr plg ani maybe kes ku ganya or I am being stupid. But it does not harm y'all to be cautious and fussy about the house.! Ask people yg pernah rent rumah before in UK -- that helped.

I don't think I have much to say -- sal Lydia force me to use the maximum capacity of my brain ability. My blood test for Arthritis or Gout will be in 2 weeks time (janji melayu ni, sebulan tu ertinya!) And pls pray for me that I won't any of these! Amin.

More to come - pictures of my bro, sis and I at Panaga Beach! Will get to it once I send it to my baby blue laptop! :)

until then, Assalamualaikum (wah baru tu ah aku say this! ;) )

Love, Bebs.C

Beaachhh

Super Junior

As I was watching MTV asia awards nominees... There is a video clip that makes me go "woah" and it was Super Junior. And how many are they in that group? OMG! They beat Spice Girls, Blue, or even PCD in terms of group members!

The thing is, I love the way they dance in "don't don" video clip... and the music is not bad. So youtube them, unfortunately some of their songs are quite cheesy, not my thing, if I don't get the wrong band. :P and no, not gonna try to like it coz they are Korean or something :P but I do respect them as an artist and Asian! Salute bebeh!

Girls out there who is "kipas susah mati" / die-hard-fan for this group, who do you think is hot? LOLS... Me? my Korean guy lah!!! Honestly, I think with the platinum white hair (dont know which one) & that weird looking dark hair dude.

PS: not falling for this band coz some of them are hot like I did to Linkin Park!! Mike Shinoda I still do have a crush on you! and Won Bin Oppa! hahaha

till then...

Miss you

On the way back

Okay dokie... I am now back in Seria... At last... Well I have been at Bandar for the weekends to report myself to the MOE and planned to go home on Friday. Something unexpected happened. My hand (thumb Especially) was swollen and excruciatingly painful! There are some pictures I took when I was in Bandar. Can you see that damn big glass?? It is 2 times my hand! You get this big at Ahan Thai (was it?) lols...

Well that night my bro in law cruised around Bandar to show the neon lights. It was beautiful!!! I cannot wait to meet his Majesty soon!!! Anyways, Happy 62nd Birthday Your Majesty and may Allah bless you always!!

And that blue sky was taken just now on the way home...

Better get going now... I'll update more often if possible...

Love, Bebs

At some point, I don't care if people say my hair looks funny, somehow I Love it so so much...
Another few shots of my new hairstyle -- funny is the new black bah... LOLS

Today's shots from one of our favorite Indian restaurant, Kuala Belait

Atan & I

DOSAI DOSAI DOSAI - It was really hot and spicy, we were sweating like a pig....

Yeah it is fun to be home again with Atan & Nurul... Today I bought more Kingston Ice Cream, Chicken Tail and Butter Cookies. We laughed a lot too. God it has been a while not hanging out with them... It was really fun... Also, it has been a while jua nda makan Dosai & gila padas kuah2 nya atu... Apa lagi kan ku makan di Brunei ani? Awuuuu, pulut panggang...

Oh anyways, this is my Stage 1 Result, though I don't really like the 60's and 50's... My dad said, why 60's and 50's -- Stop fooling around and start concentrating. Do not be too complacent with your ability... God, Sebiji ku kana leh nya. My reason -- It was hard la dad.

Here you go:

MAS1402 88%
ACE1029 80%
ACC1003 76%
ACE1002 61%
ACE1003 53%
ACE1004 57%
BUS1005 78%

Average: 68.2

I'll update more soon! Hey I love this summer Holiday!!! The Best and meletup!

PS: Lydia how are you doing there, I am bored and lost without you darling... September Insya Allah we see each other and bergila g ah...

Until then... Ciao!

Miss my sister!!!

Gaelle I MISS YOU A LOT!!!! it is good to see you again -- I will try to get someone's webcam, so you can see me next time. XoXo

Home Sweet Home

[My new hair cut - its ugly but it'll grow :) ]

First of all sorry for not telling some of you that I am in Brunei earlier. I just meant to surprise you all...

So far my days are all good... I am now at Belait :) Bless KB!

I am happy that I am home but at the same time I miss Newcastle too. Part of my memories were there. Wish it is not just memories, I want it something continuous.

Flashback:

20th September 2007 -- My first flight to London, UK. I was in shock at that moment, not believing I made it this far in my Academic life. I never though of it. Thank you God.

For the first three months -- I did not eat properly or make lots of friends. I lost weight and pimplish :P

Met someone after those 3 months -- then I started a new beginning in my life. I start cooking proper food and gained weight (a lot of weight). I was happy and still am.

Henderson Hall was a great place until some immature people just came in. Too much noises, disgusting kitchen and toilet. These experiences are not valuable at all. God. It was really terrible experience!

Before I went home -- I went to Perth, Scotland visiting Alif. It was great to see him again... Then Cardiff, Wales, visited my girlfriend Lydia (a.k.a. Lady Lydia) -- we had so much fun & thanks for the days, food and everything else. It meant a lot to me. PS: Ly jaga tu Mylo-Bo ku banar-banar ah. Jangan lupa bagi ia minum... :)

June 08 -- I am in Brunei Darussalam!! I ate lots of Dim Sum and drank a lot of bubble tea!!! I bought lots of CD songs & I started driving again. I ate Shawerma. I ate my Dad's best lamb chop... Satay... And meet some of my friends... Hoping to see the rest... :)

It is almost 7.00pm in Brunei now... I wonder what is he doing there in Korea? Also where are all of my friends who's back to Brunei -- No contact bah you guys ani. Jumpa pun inda, busy banar kah??

Enjoy some of the pictures while I am in BRUNEI!!!

Reunion

2 of the angels are with me now... after for so long missing them -- at last reunite. Like always they can just made my blood boiling and most of the times they made my day. They are all grown up...

Sneezy....

Okay! This is freaking annoying! I have had cold for almost a week now... Like we both keep on sniffing... Gosh that's disgusting... I ate my medicine every day and it is not helping me.

The weather today is quite sunny, yesterday was sunny and WINDY

It has been weeks now... wonder what he is doing there back in his hometown. I miss him... the most...

We both have no plan today -- so guess we are just going to kill the time & watch America's next top model online again... Or perhaps something else...

I will post some pictures sooner...

Love,
Bebs

CARDIFFFFFF

Today was a fun day out with Lydia! We had so much fun.. I laughed so hard and too much -- err loudest too.

My objectives were not just going out and enjoying Cardiff-ish environment, of course... LOL to "Cuci Mata". Banyak jua la abg-abg yang not bad, ada yg HOT... Ada Abg Cina, Ada Abg. Strada ( sal he works there & this guy is so a package) but nothing beat Moi (my) Seng Hwan :P:P

I do not really like walking, But since Lydia insisted to burn all this damn fats -- So I did! I was sweating and "ampus" coz Lydia walked faster than me. I don't know what is she made up of. Gosh.

I really Love Cardiff, The buildings are really nice and the environment is not bad at all, Cardiff is in my Favorite places list. I definitely come here again, perhaps Lydia and I should go to Swansea next time.

We are not sure what to do today - pre-plan was going to the National Meseum of Cardiff and "washing eyes".. Window Shopping... at the City Centre perhaps. I got cold again for the 5th day. I am really happy here being with Lydia, after for so long not meeting her.

Enjoy all the pictures, we went mad, crazy & the important thing is we both had fun & enjoy each other company. Ly, I must say I am glad to have you as a friend...

Well all the details are in http://www.lydia-choclover.blogspot.com/ -- if you are interested to know what happen. This is just an addition to it.. :P

At last -- I am out of Newcastle Hoho!!!!!!!!

Datin I want to go to GUA NIAH TOO!!! I AM SO JEALOUS.

PS: Anyone want to go to KOREA this Early SEPT? *:PP*

My summer

I love that BLUE or whatever blue you want to call it. Lydia will buy that for me!
Didn't we look so HOT!!!?????
Do not bother that damn tag -- the important thing is I look damn CUTE

Me and Razan before playing football, Perth, Scotland
US again
Me
I love this one TOO!!!! :)

Hello everyone, how are you all today?

I am very fine here. I have not been going anywhere far yet. So far I only been to Perth, Scotland and right now in Cardiff, Wales.

Guess it is my 3rd day here -- I enjoyed my time just being with Lydia. Though, I miss Seng so much right now. To be honest I can't describe it in words at all... Sigh. Just too much for me to handle this time... I hope I will be ok sooner, I am improving & close enough to move on.

Anyways, today... Lydia and me went out, the day was so lovely. Sunny. I love Cardiff! First of, we went to the University & oh my god, it is a really nice interior design, and the outside is just damn posh! Goodness, I am jealous... Going to take some of the picture sooner :)

Then we went to the City Centre... Let me see what did we do... Erm, we went to Primark and try all those tees and dresses. yup it is all in the pictures! It was fun, of course I did not get anything. However I was tempted to buy the skirt... Should I?

Then we went to New Look, god I love these type of shops! Shoes, tees -- so damn marvellous! We tried some shoes, slippers and some accessories. Pictures itself tell you everything. We had fun -- well I had fun! haha

Oh yes then we also go to Ann Summers and Millies and hmmm... Whittard. Then we decided to get some food from TESCO. On the way back we were walking and there was time where we have to go across the road. Lydia just went off, so I followed her from behind coz I saw the car stopped. And suddenly there was a car with couple of aged guys in it said "Didn't you see the light is RED? You IDIOT!" I Got called IDIOT for some damn stupid reason! He is the who should stop not me, whatever you jerk!

Verdict says: My day was not bad so far. I am enjoying it but I miss him always, every second of my life. More updates sooner.


PS: Lydia and me is planning to go to Korea this early September -- if anyone is interested please tell me earlier. Korea, I will come one day! Kiss XX


Love,
Bebs.C

for him

Ladies and gentlemen

After all of the tears and sadness I have been through for 5 days now -- I am feeling better now and Looking forward for my adventure!!

Yes I still miss him a lot, he meant the world to me... But the country is damn weird so girls and boys... if you think South Korea is that cool, do not think just one side of the story. :) One day I'll be there just to see him again... From now on I have to be prepared what the other 2 years of my life going to be for next term. No Seng and NO Gaelle... therefore Erin and me have to be there for each other now. Though she like to snatch my food *sigh* that is just her... She is kind but a food snatcher... Hahaha!! Sorry Erin!

Yea!!! I am going to go to Scotland or Scottie as Razan called it... :P I am really excited though people told me there is nothing much in Perth. I was like so? I want to see Alip!!!! Miss him!! God I miss a lot of people and thank you for the increase in allowance. Now I can go and have some fun!! WoooooHooooo!!!

My first sister is going to be in UK too -- So I am excited to see Bazillah and Mirul!!! Yes now I am in the mood of excitement to see these people!

Lydia you are next! I have loads of things to TELL and "SHARE" with you! Cannot wait! Alum ku pasang engine arah luggage ku, tunggu ku arah si alip lu. hahahaha

Talk to you guys soon

8th June 2008 -- he left

God knows how hard to actually see him gone for 2 years. Just think not being with me for two years. He the one who always take care of me when I am sick, in need, a shoulder to cry on, tolerating with my tantrums. He is my everything. To see him go to day make me felt so devastated and destroyed. He has to go for a valid reason. I do know this would happen but not this soon.

Erin and me sent him to the airport today, had my last Starbucks Dulche de Leche with him. He said "What do you want to drink? I pay for ya..." -- me "Dulche de Leche!"-- him "Again?" -- Me "I like it!" -- him "OK!" Yeah he is so sweet and not to say quite territorial. No I don't hate him acting like that, beside I felt wanted and I love him for being that way :)

Honestly -- I did not talk that much with him. It just made me cry all the time in the airport.... So we just hang at the outside of the airport and just hug! He said he did not want to go -- that actually makes me feel damn sad. As if we are forced to be separated or something. Love is really blind -- isn't it.

Yup -- hug him when he went to the departure hall. That was the time I really broke down with tears up till now I am still crying. Thinking my days won't be as much as fun when he is around me. Waking up the mornings won't be as excited as to see him for breakfast. Watching friends won't be that funny anymore. He just left a trace of him all around me. I miss that now. Tomorrow every thing will be so different without Seng in my life. God-- please give me strength for this one. I might not be able to sleep tonight. So you guys -- I would appreciate you all do not ask about him for the time being till I get use to it.

I am sure that you all know how hard to let go someone that you love so much AND not coming back for next 2 years of school term. For the sake of seeing him, I'll study very hard and save more money to see him in Seoul during his army holidays.

Seng Hwan Cho, I love you so much. You are always miss here and everywhere I go!